Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Another month, another few pounds lost

This morning's weight: 162.2

After 28 days, I have managed to lose 6 pounds. >:-( I know that I should be proud of my achievements. 6 pounds is about 1.5 pounds a week. I know in my head that this is what is considered "healthy weightloss", which essentially means that I am more liable to keep off the weight since it is going so damn slowly. But DAMN IT!! I want it to go FASTER!!!!

My goal for this month was to be 160 by February 29 (tomorrow). For a while there, I honestly, truly thought I was going to be in the mid 150s by tomorrow because a few weeks ago, I was hauling ASS! I was SO incredibly motivated and I lost like 4.5 pounds in ONE week. Then, last week, I got sick with strep throat and the only thing I ate was clam chowder and french onion soup. It was truly delicious, but as a result, I am the same weight as I was 2 weeks ago!!! *grumble grumble*.

I figure that I will probably be 159.8-ish by Thursday, March 1, provided that I do not cheat on my diet tomorrow night. I am supposed to have a dinner meeting with a friend, and since those drag ON and ON, I always get hungry and cranky and want to nibble something. I am trying to figure out how to avoid that. Anyway, I suppose being one day over my goal isn't tooooo bad. I will start the month in a new weight bracket, so that's comforting.

Despite my bitching and negativity, I am very happy that I have come so far. So many people have said how great I look and how "incredible" it is that I lost so much weight. I appreciate the encouragement, although, I must admit, at the same time I get embarrassed. I can't help but think "Damn it!!! My fluffiness really WAS that noticeable." I know it's silly. 30 pounds is a lot. People are bound to notice that shit. The crazy thing is I still have about 30 to go. I am not sure if I want to end up being 130 or 135. Somewhere in the middle is cool, I guess. So whatever. For calculation's sake, I am going to say my end goal weight is 133. As such, I only have 29.2 pounds to lose. 29.2 sounds so much better than 30!

At this rate, I should hit 130 by the end of May. I really really really really hope I can beat that goal!! I just need to keep reminding myself to say "No!" to fluffy (and food).

*Side note: I went out on Saturday to celebrate the Oscars with some of my friends and I bought a new dress. Not just ANY dress... I rewarded my weightloss by going out shopping on Rodeo Dr. I went to the store and picked it out and went into the dressing room and thought "Who am I kidding?! Why am I embarrassing myself?! I am never going to fit into this!!!" But I'll be damned if I didn't fit into it!! And it wasn't one of those dresses where it's like "Yeah I can fit into it, but I can't fucking breathe and my muffin tops are spilling out the sides!!!" No no no.... it was one of those dresses where it's like "HOT DAMN!!!! If fashion was porn, this dress would be the MONEY SHOT!" So yeah... I bought it and wore it and I didnt even have to wear a girdle!!!!

Side note #2: Even though I am frustrated that I am not 160 yet, I am pretty happy when I look at my Body Mass Index (BMI) and see that I am now officially considered to be within the "normal weight" range. I am 5'8 and weigh 162.2 which means that I have a BMI of 24.7! Normal range is anywhere between 18.5-24.9. So, although I am just BARELY into the normal weight range, the point is I am actually there! When I was 225, my BMI was 34.2! So, yeah... I am quite happy that I am finally within what is considered the "normal range" and that I am going to be there for the rest of my life!!

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Good news and Bad news

I realize that it has been a while since I posted last. In that time, I have aged another year, lost some weight, gained some muscle, and gotten drunk on multiple occassions. So, with regard to my "weight removal" news, here goes:

Weight: 168. Yes, this is skinnier than I have been since HIGH SCHOOL. I am quite excited to be under 170. I have maintained this weight for a few weeks (more or less... I splurged on my birthday weekend, went back up to 172, and then dropped down to 169 within 2 days) and can say my official weight is "in the 160's). So... this is my good news.

Bad news: I was looking at the "Half My Size" January edition of People Magazine and they have pictures in there of various people who weighed a lot and then lost LITERALLY half of their own body weight and look amazing now. Well, there are several women in there who are my height (5'8"). Their weights varied between 125-160. I noticed that the women who were 5'8 and 149-ish were still more, well, "plump" than I would like to be when I lose all my weight. I mean, they are certainly a healthy weight for being 5'8, but I would like to be healthy AND look, well, HOT!! So I talked it over with my trainer tonight and he said that he thinks for my height I would look HOT! at around 135. That was pretty consistent with what I saw in the pictures.

So..... to make a long story short, instead of having to lose 18 more pounds, I now get to lose 33 more pounds. Yay. Can you tell how excited I am? No, seriously. It's been hard enough coming THIS far and I thought I was in the homestretch, had already rounded third base and was about to slide into homeplate but NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! I am just barely rounding second!!! But... I shall persevere and try to stay positive.

If I make it to 135, I will have lost a total of 90 pounds!!!!!!!!! Holy fucking crap! That's the weight of an obese child!! That's almost the weight of Kate Moss! I think thats about what Kirstie Alley lost and she is exactly my height. So..... yeah..... stick with me, because I got another 30 to go!